I am a 20 year old female who is recovering from depression and social anxiety. I have always had a great amount of anxiety since I was young. I feel like it has been increasing and I feel paranoid about everything. I feel like I am constantly being watched and judged harshly. I get to classes 15 minutes early so I won't have to walk in front of the class. I refuse to eat meals at my dining hall because I am in constant fear people are talking about me, and waste thousands of dollars because of it. More and more lately I have been reclused in my room, afraid to leave because I don't want to see people and won't know what to say. I have spoken with a clinical psychologist for 3 years, but stopped once I started college. (I am now seeing a counselor, but it isn't seeming to help) I thought I was over all of this. It is coming back and now I have increased paranoia about everything. I have researched 'paranoia' but I do not necesarily think people are out to harm me or gang up on me. I have constant thoughts of death and constantly see myself dying (I envision gross accidents, car accidents, freak accidents, and believe they might happen). I am terrified of everything and have developed all sorts of phobias. My friends have began noticing and tell me I cannot live my whole life in constant fear. Is this just anxiety? Or could it be the beginnings of paranoia?
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Female , Age: 20
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