Hello all. I have so many things I need advice on but I'll deal with one thing at a time.
My father was just charged with murding my two little brothers, (he plead guilty to a charge lesser then the death sentence), I am 31 years old and my dad has been a huge sorce of love in my life. The problem I'm having is because I am so close to my dad I have not answered his mail or made any contact with him in over a year. I really don't understand myself why this is the way I have delt with this trama. The only thing I can think, is this must be my confusing way to protect myself from dealing with all the emotional pain. Not only was my dad one of the only people I had, I also "was" the only person he had.
With that said I also need to tell you, MY DAD IS INOCENT. I grew up with him and even though we had hard times, I can trully say " he is the only constant love and support I've ever had. He helped care for my daughter, and is missed every minute!!
I feel like he just gave up and took a bogus plea because he doesn't feel like anyone loves him or cares anymore.
I want to reach out to him and be there for him the way he would me, but don't know how.. I write sometimes, ( never send them) after so much time I don't know what to say.
How do I begin?, What can I say to bridge this gap?
Sometimes when I take time to just sitdown and remember him, my mind goes blank, I can't remember what I was gonna write, and even have a hard time keeping my consentration..
PLEASE HELP!!
WHERE DO I START?
please respond a.s.a.p., ( without him to ask" what to do?", I am resorting to this!)
FROM: Desperately Missing Daddy