I really need help. I have never been so scared in my life. I had one positive ora quick almost a full year ago and the fear of having hiv/aids has taken over my life. I would go to councilling but i cant afford it. So i have been trying to get over the scare by testing it away. So far all of the additional tests- multiple negative elisa's and one rna pcr tests out to 8 months have really helped. As bad as I am now I was worse before these tests. The only thing that sticks in my mind is the fact that the First positive ora-quick was NEVER followed up by a western blot. I read an article in the cdc (and talked to someone on the hotline) which said that 5 people had been reported as "false-positives" who were actually positive, because only the elisa was used to follow up instead of the western blot. Should I seek out a western blot only test just to ease my fears? Would I even be ably to have that done if i wanted to? I have never had anxiety b4..I really am afraid. PLS help!

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Age: 31, Nevada

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Everything. I feel better for a few days after testing then start to re-lapse. I don't know if I can beat this. I have never had anxiety about anything else.. it doesn't make sense that it could come out of nowhere like this.