i feel like i think with two different minds, each with different interests. one is realistic and understands what is REALLY going on. the positives of this side are that i can be tuned in with myself and my surroundings. the negatives include feelings of depression caused by realizing how things went wrong or how things could be different. the other side is idealistic and sees the positives in how i can really change the future. this side can be more confident and realizes that life is like a game that i am playing out. the negatives of this side come from doubt that i can really fulfill those dreams and be who i want to be. seriously, i just don't know what is going on in my head. this may sound like "just growing up" but nobody can relate on an exact level.